Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The Letter That Should Never Be Written.

Danbury January 27, 2010.

My Dear Friend,

Maybe you don't even remenber that today we would be celebrating our anniversary. Like last year we would have taken the day off to do something nice, which we rarely did, just us, no kids


It was brutal the way you ended our marriage. Suddenly you hated the house. The garden was a bore and everything was out to extinguish you financially and physically.

I remember that it was an unusually cold and rainny summer Thursday. When I got home you told me that you wanted out and that you were going away. I guess while I was at work you were packing and arranging flights with your GFTP (Girlfriend From The Past)…To me, you said that you needed some time alone. But alone, you were not…

I texted GFTP as you may know, armed with a single warning from the Bible “ what God united let no man put asunder” Fruitless. When you came back you were not you anymore. You were thinking of selling an upside down mortgage to me, you emptied our bank account, started divorce procedures and made threats with the INS, which you still do through friends. How humiliating is that?

Later on, when the judge asked you, if this marriage could be reconciled and you said no, I felt one bitter tear falling down my face.When after 30 minutes we were both declared single, and allowed to leave, I still sat outside the court room, and cried.

I didn’t only ask God if I had the right to be angry at my husband because he didnt love me anymore, but also if I had the right to be angry at you for divorcing me the way you did. We both know the answer, since we both know the teachings of Christ.
I know you never asked for forgiveness but I do forgive you and her, and I do hope you are doing well, not because I still love you, but because I still love Him, and want to love Him forevermore. I pray that God opens up doors and opportunities for you, and that He reconnects you with your kids, and I mean it.

Acts 20:35 "And remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He said, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive." How much more so, if what you're giving is love.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You know what they say: money cannot buy happiness, it is better to loose money that to loose sleep or loose your soul. Some day if you can trust again you will find a man to love you and worship you. You just keep on being you.
Blessings